[He's surprised by how she's treating him, but in a good way. She doesn't seem to be too concerned with spoiling him too much or making sure he talks about what he went through. He relives that every night; he doesn't want to relive it during the day too.
Killian glances over to her, considering her for a few moments.]
I'm a land girl, can't you tell? [Her tone is cheerful.] I'd have joined the army, but to be honest, I'd want to be a proper soldier, and if they were going to just stick me behind a desk to push papers for some fat general, I'd just as soon be out here, working with my hands and making sure the country's kept fed.
It is. [She disagrees, though she's not puppyish or wide-eyed or naive about it.]
What's the alternative? Let the Nazis roll right over us? Every man who commits himself, every man who sacrifices, is a hero. To me, at any rate. Bravery's about doing what's necessary despite fear, not having a lack of it.
I couldn't say. [Her tone is frank.] I don't know the details, and I won't pry if you don't want to talk. But the situation you blame yourself for? You wouldn't have been in it at all if not for the damn Germans.
[His voice seethes with anger, the words spat out like poison. Killian's hands are still shaking, and he finds he's a little out of breath, worked up by the topic.]
I know. [She scrunches up her face.] Terrible, innit? My foster brother thinks it's hilarious, but our dad just tells me proper ladies oughtn't behave that way.
[She reaches up to unpin the kerchief from her hair, pausing momentarily.] You don't mind, do you?
[It doesn't matter, because she doesn't wait; long red hair spills down her back, and she seemed relieved for letting it flow. Having it pinned up for hours can be uncomfortable.]
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Killian glances over to her, considering her for a few moments.]
What are you doing here?
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...Being a soldier isn't...it's not...
[He struggles for a few moments.]
...There's nothing brave or heroic about it. You're better off here.
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What's the alternative? Let the Nazis roll right over us? Every man who commits himself, every man who sacrifices, is a hero. To me, at any rate. Bravery's about doing what's necessary despite fear, not having a lack of it.
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[Killian's voice is bitter, shaking slightly. His hands tremble in his lap and he curls them into fists.]
How is that a good thing? How is that...heroic and patriotic and...whatever bullshit propaganda they're spreading now?
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[Stick that in your pipe and smoke it, mister.]
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[His voice seethes with anger, the words spat out like poison. Killian's hands are still shaking, and he finds he's a little out of breath, worked up by the topic.]
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You're...very upfront with your opinions.
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[She reaches up to unpin the kerchief from her hair, pausing momentarily.] You don't mind, do you?
[It doesn't matter, because she doesn't wait; long red hair spills down her back, and she seemed relieved for letting it flow. Having it pinned up for hours can be uncomfortable.]
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[His smile comes a little easier this time, though it's still small and shy.]
If I wanted to be fussed over and coddled, I would have gone home.